My Psalm

Why did Mike have to leave?
Why was he so mean to them?

I’ve been on the new team for six months.
Why haven’t I been able to adjust?
Is it because of my friends?
Am I still to close to them?
Why is the change so hard to accept?
I want to accept it. So why can’t I?
I know I’ll never go back. I can’t.

Is all change really for the better?
There have been a lot of changes in my life this past year.
High school, swimming, then Mike was fired.
Why did he leave without saying good-bye?

I don’t understand any of this.
I can’t talk to anyone else. They wouldn’t understand.
But is this the real reason
Behind my trouble adjusting to Santa Clara?
Is it because I’m still attached to my old team?

Can you help me understand, God?
Would You help me know why it happened?
And why it happened when it did?

Why can’t I let go?
Why is it so hard?

It was easy for my siblings.
Why so hard for me to let go.
I don’t understand
And I need Your help.

Please help me to accept all this.